life in Progress

I often post about paintings in progress but its all part of life in progress...

i have a tendency to live in the future and i have unrealistic expectations for pretty much everything in life. while i realize this sounds like a great way to achieve things... it's actually a great way of getting pretty much no where because I have a deep seated fear that I'm going to miss out on something.

The TED talk I posted below is a great example of the differences in past present and future living.



I am trying to strike a balance between that intense future-living part of me...but also wake up that present-living and give her a kick in the ass.

Have you made this type of drastic change in your life? Is it always this stubborn of a change? And why do I feel like there's something wrong/selfish in doing so?